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 ay
that Allah is Ahad,
Allah is samed,
Lamyelid and Lam yulad,
Lam yekun lehu qufuwan Ahad!…
Think
of a limitless,
infinite being… How can that being be broken and divided into
pieces and be in need of someone!…
How can there be another second being outside this limitless
infinite being which would be
needed by the first one!
This limitless and infinite being did not have life
through birth, then in this case why should this being
give birth to anything else.
Is it possible that all the above may take place as hu (the
limitless, infinite being) is not even a whole ?
Even attributing these qualities to a being which can become
nothing should be nothing!…
Among the above I have
felt and found all the qualities regarding Allah’s essence
(Allah’s nothingness) in
Hz.Rasul of Allah…
While we were being
told ‘’Do not meditate about the essence of Allah’’ I
have realised that we should not
actually meditate
about Hz.Rasul of Allah, to say it more clearly we should not
meditate about the state that he is in (his state of mind).
So, in my mind I wanted to open a window for
this ‘’Nothingness’’!…
In
the circumstances dominated by this ‘’Nothingness’’,
there was nothing to do, to say or to hear… Even there
wasn’t a thought which said ‘’absolutely nothing’’…
Everywhere was surrounded by a continuous thoughtlessness……
However, it was definitely not silence. This was named as
‘’Nothingness’’. In this dimension there wasn’t any
man, even existence and the word time was never mentioned…
Even the ‘’Instant’’ could not become
close to this dimension.
It was impossible to speak about the endlessness of
the cosmos.
The influences were speechless.(they did not have any effect)
This was the place where the conscious stopped!..
Also, it was not a
place where one felt himself neither comfortable nor troubled.
There weren’t any of the words that had put their stamp on our
time (the popular and valid concepts of our time).
There wasn’t the slightest sign reflecting the ego.
There, the world of the satan, the angels, the fairies or the
magic, the witchcraft was not being lived. The secrets of the life could not be
shared.
Actually, there wasn’t any secret so that it could be
shared!..
There weren’t any concepts such as being serious, honest or
consistent. That place was not an imaginary dimension. However,
it was also
impossible to name it as abstract.
In that dimension, there weren’t any lists composed of the things which make one sick and tired of
and also there weren’t any values which are lost or
gained…
The words to loose and to win were never
mentioned…
All
of these were the things that are being watched from the outside
of the ‘Nothing’. There wasn’t any talk even about the One, let alone the
multiplicity.
There wasn’t even a trace of those beautiful qualities that
belonged to the Only One…
It was useless to talk…
I chose to keep silent and
Not to think!..
Then
the ‘’Instant’’ was formed…
A point, in which everything
including even the minute details within the infinity
were present…
It is not something about which we make comments such as ‘that
should have happenned’’ or ‘’that has to happen’’,
it happenned without even a discussion about it…
And we are trying to feel what has happenned.
Mysticism
has brought a definiton ‘’time has taken its existence from
the Asma-ul husna/ the beautiful names of Allah’’.
Asma has taken its existence from
the ‘’Instant’’.
Instant is not the short piece of time which we know. You
should think of it as a stationary concept in a movement/ motion
which does not have neither a front nor a back…
Are we aware that we have been detached from the time that we
are in, and we are
inside That
Instant?
Friedrich
Nietzsche, while explaining the concept ‘’that Instant’’
says : ‘’All of a sudden it is here and disappears all of a
sudden. Before, it was nothing, afterwards it is also nothing,
however it still comes again like a dream and makes another
instant uncomfortable’’.
In his book ‘’About
History’’ he says : ‘’From the bundel of time a page/ a
leaf that has
become loose, falls apart and flies away. All of a sudden it
returns back to the human being’s arms and then man says ‘I
remember’’…
While
I am travelling it
is quite difficult for me to place my thoughts on
paper…
In general, I am
used to writing in the comfort of my home or my office when I
return back. In this way I have the possibility to look at the
events from outside. Maybe, for this reason I feel more secure
and touch the letters on the writing board of my PC more
consciously and more strongly, more deeply from the essence.
On
the return from the Umrah all I could write was a big
‘’Nothing’’!..
Please, do not say ‘’Wasn’t there anything else that you
could tell?’’…
Please, do not do this!..
All
I want to do is to load this concept into our common subconscious!…
Ýstanbul-
December
14th 2000
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