n Arabic proverb says ‘’Life consists of two parts; a past dream and a coming wish’’
I think, every human being has come across to this saying.
As for myself,  I am thinking that I have caught this life which the symbol called time has divided.
In short this is an adventure that has two parts…

My first job was mainly to deal with calculations, and figures contrary to the art of writing.  During those days, the feelings brought along by young age  had sometimes made me work hard in a continuous manner and they sometimes made me flexible, indecisive or to be rather aloof.  I could never be certain, I could never be sure about what I was doing.
Amidst those efforts, I was always looking for something else.
Maybe,  my second side or aspect was hidden, it was covered up.
This aspect which I became very well aware of  in the later years was about writing.
This irresistable desire which took a strange form in myself  showed itself  in a local newspaper for the first time.
Afterwards it started to force some other columns.

I cannot say that I have a very special writing style. I have never been among the most favourite writers. To say it short, it would not be logical if  I think that I have reached a citadel; moreover saying such a thing would be very ridiculous  indeed.
However, I can say that I am really spending lots of effort on each of the subjects which I have chosen with utmost care.  I  do my best so that each article that I finish would be the best among   the rest.
This is how it happens:
When the experiences leave their places to another article, maybe they are living the sorrow of being left. However, they do not regret, because they think that the contents of the coming article is taken from them.
Even if  the subjects are different, I am feeling  this …

Karel Reisz says ‘’Life is not a choice. Something can either happen or not. Lots of  choices may prefer you.’’ By saying so he has warned those who have the ability to think.
As far as I can understand he wants to say ‘’Sometimes your preferences may not be much. However, the important thing is that the preference should choose you’’.
Every person has a choice which comes and finds him no matter what he does.  The preference  that has been  explained above has found me on the mystic path and took as its company an accumulation of knowledge which was beyond ‘’imitation’’ and mere ‘’transfer’’.  It also taught me that a human being who thinks and researches will never feel the difficulty.

I would like to say that I do they take pleasure from the texture of  my life in this second part.  Actually, a pleasing work abolishes that feeling of emptiness which is seen in a person who is fighting with the most basic and deep problems of  life!…
I think that Hayyam has felt this texture very well as can be understood from his following lines:

‘’From our lives another day has come and  passed;
Like the water flowing in the river, or the wind blowing from the valley.
There are two days in this world which does not make any difference for me whether they exist or not:
The first is the day that does not come and the second is the day that has already passed.’’

Hope to see you next week…

Istanbul- March 1^th 2001
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